PIERRE GUYOTAT; BODY OF THE TEXT

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BODY OF THE TEXT

THIS IS NOT WRITTEN. BUT DICTATED. IMPROVISED. NOTEBOOKS IN HAND— NOT FOR A STOCKTAKING OF PAST OR PRESENT JOTTINGS ON WHAT I AM ABOUT TO DESCRIBE: THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MASTURBATION AND WRITING— BUT IN ORDER TO SPEAK TEXT IN HAND AND EXPOSED TO VIEW—; NO USE EXPECTING THEN. A TEXT THAT MIGHT BE DESCRIBED AS “SCHOLARLY” OR “MARGINAL” (NECESSARY TERMS AT AN EPOCH DETERMINED BY POLITICAL ENGAGEMENTS OF AN ADMINISTRATIVE KIND. OR BY A HESITATION TO EXPRESS THE MOST VOCAL SOUNDINGS OF THE MASTURBATORY TEXT). NONETHELESS, THE NEED TO MAKE MY FIRST DECLARATIONS ON THE RELATIONSHIP MASTURBATION-WRITING DATES FROM A POLITICAL CONTEXT (“LA NOUVELLE CRITIQUE”).

I REMEMBER HAVING BEGUN TO MASTURBATE AT THE AGE OF NINE, IN ORDER TO “PUT OFF” A DESIRE TO PISS OR CRAP. AT THAT AGE IT WAS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO PUT UP MY HAND IN CLASS AND PUBLICLY MAKE KNOWN MY NEEDS. DRAWING ATTENTION TO MYSELF AS A BODY, ORGANISM, PRODUCER OF MATTER, ALTHOUGH I HAVE NEVER EVER FELT THE LEAST EMBARRASSED ON THE CONTRARY. ABOUT BEING SEEN AS BODY, ORGANS. ALREADY THEN, BY DISCOVERING AND PUTTING INTO PRACTICE THIS MASTURBATORY SYSTEM, I WAS ACTING IN A VERY COHERENT WAY AS TO THE MASTERING OF MY NEEDS AND WANTS: AS I SAW IT. ORGASM— ALTHOUGH I COULDN’T HAVE NAMED IT AT A TIME IT DID NOT YET LEAD TO EJACULATION— WITHELD THE TURD AND URINE. REPEATED SEVERAL TIMES A DAY. THIS OPERATION SEEMED TO ME IN NO WAY REPREHENSIBLE. IT TOOK PLACE, AS UNOBTRUSIVELY AS POSSIBLE, UNDER THE DESK: FIST THRUST INTO MY POCKET (ITS SEAMS FULL OF CRUMBS. ORANGE PEEL, SUGAR, ETC.), JERKING THE LITTLE SEX. THROUGH THE UNDERPANTS AT FIRST, THEN GRADUALLY, MONTH BY MONTH AS THE PLEASURE BECAME MORE PRACTISED, WITH UNDERPANTS PUSHED AGAINST THE THIGH. FROM THAT TIME ON I ALSO MASTURBATED MUCH LESS IN THE WC, ACCORDING TO A KIND OF GAME. A CHALLENGE TO MY OWN BODY: ARSE DISTENDED OVER THE HOLE (OUT OF WHICH RISE TO PALPITATING MOUTH AND NOSTRILS ALL THE ODORS OF THE SUMP AND THE HERCYNIAN MOUNTAIN EARTH ON WHICH THE SCHOOL IS BUILT. PERVADED. FILTERED BY THE FRAILER SMELL OF SEMEN). AND I— HIDDEN IN THE VERY HAUNT OF HUMAN AND OFTEN ANIMAL DEJECTIONS (DOGS, CATS, SCREECH-OWLS FROM THE FARM COMING THERE TO DEFECATE)— I. MOST COMICALLY, CONDUCTING A DIALOGUE BETWEEN THE ARSE-HOLE AND THE SEX. BETWEEN THE SLITHER OF THE TURD AND THAT OF THE ORGASM.

SOMETIMES, GETTING OUT OF CONTROL, ORGASM AND DEFECATION TOOK PLACE SIMULTANEOUSLY, AND SUCH MOMENTS ARE PINNACLES OF PLEASURE. AS A RESULT. BECAUSE MY UNDERPANTS BEAR THE MARKS (SOMEWHAT OVER-ESTIMATED) OF THIS TRANSFER, I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM TO THE LAUNDRY OR THE SCHOOL LAUNDRESSES. AND HIDE THEM UNDER MY MATTRESS IN THE DORMITORY; THEN. STUFFING THEM INTO MY POCKET WHEN WE FALL INTO LINE AT 6 A.M. TO GO DOWN TO CHAPEL. I CARRY THEM OUTSIDE SCHOOL LIMITS BEHIND THE TUMBLEDOWN W.C.: THERE. I HIDE THEM UNDER A PILE OF STONES. IT HAPPENS AT MOMENTS OF PANIC THAT QUITE UNINTENTIONALLY I EVACUATE THE LAST OF MY SUPPLY OF UNDER- PANTS, AND AM FORCED (BUT WITH WHAT PLEASURE!) TO PUT MY PANTS ON OVER BARE SKIN, SUBMITTING TO THIS ADDITIONAL STRAIN OF DRESSING AND UNDRESSING IN PUBLIC UNTIL I CAN RECUPERATE A PAIR FROM UNDER THE STONES. DURING THE HOLIDAYS MY MOTHER, WHO DIED IN AUGUST ’58. WAS SURPRISED BY MY DWINDLING PACKET (NUMBER 49) OF WASHING. AND AFTER LAYING SIEGE TO ME FOR SEVERAL DAYS FINISHED 8 Y REDUCING HER “WEEPING CHILD” TO AN ADMISSION OF WHY AND WHEREABOUTS; AND, MAKING THE MOST OF A VISIT PAID BY MY DOCTOR FATHER IN THE VICINITY OF THE SCHOOL, CLOSED FOR THE SUMMER, SHE CAME WITH ME TO LIFT THE STONES ONE AFTER ANOTHER AND, UNKNOWN TO MY FATHER WHO DIED IN NOVEMBER 71, RECUPERATE AND PUT BACK INTO CIRCULATION THAT IMPORTANT PART OF MY WARDROBE.

THE RELATION BETWEEN WRITING AND MASTURBATION APPEARS FOR THE FIRST TIME ROUND THE AGE OF TEN OR ELEVEN. I START TO DRAW (WOMEN WITH HALOS. ILLUMINATED TITLES) AND THIS GESTURE BRINGS MY HAND. MY RIGHT HAND. THE MASTURBATOR, OUT OF MY POCKET. I IMMEDIATELY WORKED OUT ANOTHER SYSTEM— WHAT I DON’T REMEMBER — TO POSTPONE THE NEED TO DEFECATE; THEN, THE LEFT HAND, MORE AND MORE EXPERT. BEGINS TO TAKE OVER, TO MASTURBATE. THIS COINCIDES WITH THE FIRST EJACULATION. THE EXPULSION THEREFORE OF ANOTHER MATTER. DISTURBING BECAUSE HALF WAY BETWEEN SHIT AND URINE, AND WHICH, BECAUSE IT SMELLS AND WETS THE CLOTHES, PUTS A STOP ONCE AND FOR ALL TO RESORTING TO ORGASM AS AN ANTI-DEFECATOR. I DON’T REMEMBER THAT PERIOD. DURING WHICH I PRACTISED DRAWING AND SPECIALLY PAINTING MORE AND MORE ASSIDUOUSLY, AS EXCEPTIONALLY SEXUAL. IT IS ONLY WHEN I BEGIN TO WRITE THAT THE MASTURBATORY PROCESS ACCELERATES AND LEADS. AS ERECTION AND DISCHARGE INCREASE IN CAPACITY, TO A DRAMATISATION OF THE PRACTICE.

FOR THIS RELATIONSHIP WRITING/MASTURBATION THERE ARE TWO MAIN SETTINGS: ONE IS THE COLLEGE I NOW ATTENDED. TERM TIME. THE OTHER HOME. HOLIDAYS. THE FIRST SETTING IS DIVIDED INTO TWO: CLASSROOM AND DORMITORY.

—CLASSROOM: I CONTINUE MASTURBATING WITH THE LEFT HAND, THE RIGHT HAND DEVOTED HENCEFORTH TO WRITING— SOMETIMES A “DECENT’ TEXT (POEMS) COPIED AFTERWARDS ON TO LUXURY SHEETS OF DRAWING PAPER AND PUT TOGETHER IN ALBUMS OR “BOOKS”; AT OTHER TIMES, A CONVULSIVE SERIES OF ORGIASTIC NOTES KNOWN AS ORGIASTIC WRITINGS, WRITTEN, SCRIBBLED ON PIECES OF RULED PAPER TORN FROM EXERCISE BOOKS. WHERE NEIGHBOURING BODIES. WITH THEIR OWN NAMES, PHYSICAL PECULIARITIES. CLOTHING, ETC., BECOME THE DRAMATIS PERSONAE OF THE ACT— BOYS WITH WHOM I LOOK AT PORNOGRAPHIC MAGAZINES BROUGHT FROM THEIR HOME TOWNS. A COMMUNAL EXCITEMENT PRODUCING THE HOMOSEXUAL RELATIONSHIP WHICH LINKS US UNCONSCIOUSLY (ALTHOUGH WHERE OTHERS OF MY KIND ARE CONCERNED I WAS THEN, AND STILL AM. CONSCIOUS OF MY SEXUAL SUPERIORITY BECAUSE I CAN WRITE WHAT IS VOCALLY IMMINENT BETWEEN US). NOT INFREQUENTLY IN THESE NOTES A PROCESS EMERGES (VERY PRODUCTIVE SUBCONSCIOUSLY) IN CONTRADICTION WITH THE METHODS OF “DECENT’’ WRITING, NAMELY: A WRITTEN PHONETISATION OF THE USUAL SPEECH OF ONE OR OTHER OF THE BOYS, BASED ON THEIR SEXUAL BREATHING QUICKENED BY THE SIGHT OF THE PORN PHOTOS. TODAY, I CAN’T SAY AT WHAT POINT (“DECENT” OR ORGIASTIC TEXT?) THE MASTUR- BATORY ACT BEGAN TO PREDOMINATE, BUT IF I AM PERSUADED THAT NOBODY EVER SAW ME MASTURBATE IN CLASS. IT IS BECAUSE I AM MORE AND MORE CONVINCED THROUGH MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND HEARING OTHERS TALK, THAT MOST OF THOSE ROUND ME WERE DOING THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME.

—DORMITORY: HERE, MASTURBATION WITH SUCCESSIVE ORGASMS INDUCED BY LECHEROUS REVERIE, FUNCTIONS AT FIRST ON THE THRESHOLD OF THE SUBCONSCIOUS. ON THE EDGE OF DREAM. WHEREAS LATER, INTO WHAT IS AFTER ALL A VERY ORDINARY SITUATION. IS INTRODUCED AN IMPORTANT MATERIAL ELEMENT: THE MASTURBATORY COSTUME. WHICH. ONCE THE SESSION IS BROUGHT TO AN END BY LACK OF JUICE. MUST BE REMOVED. SPERM AND ALL. FROM BETWEEN THE THIGHS. ITS CLEAN END USED FOR WIPING BALLS AND PENIS IN THE PROCESS. IN OTHER WORDS. THE ACT OF MASTURBATION, ORIGINALLY MERGED WITH SLEEP AND DREAM. IS PROGRESSIVELY DISTINGUISHED BY THE NEED TO DISPOSE OF THE COSTUME AND WIPE THE ORGANS INVOLVED BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP. MARKING IN THIS WAY A MATERIAL BOUNDARY BETWEEN CONSCIOUSNESS AND UNCONSCIOUSNESS. BECAUSE ALL OPERATIONS HAD TO BE CARRIED OUT AS SILENTLY AS POSSIBLE. I BECAME MORE AND MORE SKILLFUL IN MAKING THEM COINCIDE WITH ONE OF THE PREDICTABLE SOUNDS IN THE DORMITORY— FOR EXAMPLE. THE RUSTLE OF WRIGGLING OUT OF THE COSTUME WITH THE RUSTLE OF THE PRIESTS CASSOCK AGAINST THE CURTAIN DURING ONE OF HIS ROUNDS OF INSPECTION (SINCE MY SESSION ALWAYS TOOK PLACE BEFORE HE RETIRED TO HIS ALCOVE FOR THE NIGHT)— OR WITH UNPREDICTABLE SOUNDS (OUTSIDE. A SUCCESSION OF DOGS BARKING. OR A SUDDEN SHOWER) WHICH SERVED AS DAMPER OR MUFFLER FOR MY BREATHING, AND DIVERTED ATTENTION FROM THE HEAVING OF SHEET AND BLANKET. ONCE THE COSTUME REMOVED. A HAND DRAWING IT UP ALONG THE BODY WEIGHTED WITH WARMTH AND THE LATEST ODORS. IT WAS SLID UNDER THE MATTRESS. AS I SUFFERED FROM SOMNAMBULISM AT THE TIME. I WAS AFRAID OF FALLING ASLEEP BEFORE HIDING IT. OR WALKING IN MY SLEEP BRANDISHING IT. THIS FEAR. TOO VAGUE TO RECALL, NEVER PREVENTED THE DAILY SESSION. SHOULD THIS BE SEEN AS AN EARLY MARK OF CONFIDENCE IN MY UNCONSCIOUS BODY, IN THE POWER OF CONTROL (NOT OF SELFEFFACEMENT AT THAT PARTICULAR EPOCH) OF OR GUILT FEELINGS. INEVITABLE IN THE ATMOSPHERE OF CULTURAL VISCERALITY PRODUCED BY THE PRACTICE? UNLESS. THE PROFOUND PROSTITUIONAL DRIVE TO WHICH I WAS PREY AT THE TIME. PREVENTED MY SLEEPING BODY FROM MAKING A BAWDY STROLL BETWEEN BEDS AND BODIES.

THE SECOND SETTING ALSO COMPRISES TWO DECORS: BEDROOM AND “NATURE”.

THESE TWO HOMELY AND HOLIDAY SETTING ALLOW MORE FREEDOM FOR ELABORATE DRAMATISATION. IT IS AT THIS POINT THEN. THAT WE SHOULD DESCRIBE THE MASTURBATORY COSTUME. FOR IT WAS AT HOME. NOT AT COLLEGE THAT I MADE IT; IN MY BEDROOM AND USUALLY AT NIGHT. SINCE A CHILD’S ROOM IS OPEN BY DAY TO ITS MOTHER. A LITTLE LESS AT NIGHT (MY ROOM UNDER THE EAVES AT SOME DISTANCE FROM THE PARENTAL BEDROOM. WAS RELATIVELY PRIVILEGED. AND I COULD. BY LEAVING THE DOORS ON THE ATTIC AND STAIRCASE OPEN. FORESTALL ANY IMPORTUNATE VISITS FROM MY FATHER IF CALLED ON AN URGENT VISIT DURING THE NIGHT). THE COSTUME WENT THROUGH VARIOUS STAGES. EVOLVED OR DETERIORATED ACCORDING TO TIME AND PLACE. ORIGINALLY IT WAS MADE UP OF TWO ELEMENTS: A KIND OF JOCK-STRAP FASHIONED FROM RAGS. AND A CLOTH LAID UNDER THE CENTRE OF OPERATIONS (OBVIOUSLY AT COLLEGE IT SERVED TO PROTECT THE SHEET FROM STAINS. BUT IN MY BEDROOM IT WAS OFTEN SUPERFLUOUS AS THE SESSION OFTEN TOOK PLACE NAKED AND IN THE RAW ON THE TILES OF THE BEDROOM FLOOR.

—THE JOCK-STRAP: A METICULOUS SEARCH IN CUPBOARDS. LUMBER-ROOM, ETC. FOR THE MATERIAL. THE CHOICE DETERMINED BY THE POSSIBILITY OF SOMEONE DISCOVERING A PIECE MISSING OR TORN FROM A LENGTH OF MATERIAL. AND ALSO BECAUSE OF ITS LECHEROUS EFFECT ON THE BODY: NEVER FOR ITS AESTHETIC EFFECTS. BECAUSE OF ITS SOFTNESS. FOR EXAMPLE. BUT IN FUNCTION OF ITS SOCIAL REFERENCE (CHOICE OF A PROLETARIAN CLOTH AT A TIME. 1955, WHEN IT SEEMS TO ME THERE WAS STILL A CONSIDERABLE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN. LET US SAY. MY MOTHER AND HER MAID IN THE WAY THEY DRESSED): THIS SHOULD BE SEEN AS A DRAMATIC DESIRE OF MY EFFACEMENT AS THE BOURGEOIS BODY; KNEADING BY BOURGEOIS HAND OF BOURGEOIS SEX THROUGH PROLETARIAN TISSUE. MASTURBATION AND EJACULATION PRODUCING A BLENDING OF ONE AND THE OTHER MEMBER WITH THE DYE AND WORN AND FADING FIBRE IN A SERIES OF INCREASINGLY VIOLENT ORGASMS. CHOICE DETERMINED ALSO BY A CLOTH CAPABLE OF A CRADLING OR LECHEROUS CURBING OF THE PARTS (RUSTIC WITHOUT RIGIDITY. GENTLE IN ITS THREADBARE GIVE. ACCORDING TO WHETHER I WAS IN THE MOOD TO BE PIMP OR BAWD— AND OFTEN IN THE COURSE OF A SESSION A CHANGE OF COSTUME TOOK PLACE BETWEEN TWO ORGASMS. SO THAT I SWITCHED FROM BAWD TO PIMP, ACCOMPANIED OBVIOUSLY BY A SIMULTANEOUS CHANGE IN ORGIASTIC TEXT: WITH PIMP’S COSTUME PIMP’S TALK OR VICE VERSA, WITH BAWD’S COSTUME BAWDY TALK OR VICE VERSA—. OR ELSE. IF UNDECIDED AS TO SOCIAL POSTURE, BOTH COSTUMES ONE ON TOP OF THE OTHER. BUT NEVER TO THE POINT WHERE HAND. PALM AND FINGERS CEASE TO FEEL THE EXACT OUTLINE OF MY SEX; AT WHICH POINT THE TEXT TURNS INTO A GENERAL APOSTROPHISING OF MY BODY). USUALLY I MADE THE COSTUMES SITTING NAKED ON THE EDGE OF MY BED: I CUT THE CLOTH BY GUESS-WORK, NOT BOTHERING WITH A HEM AS THE ROUGH EDGES MADE IT LOOK MORE REMINISCENT OF A BAWDY HOUSE. AROUND THE SIDES I POKED HOLES THROUGH WHICH I THREADED COARSE PACKING STRING, AND THERE, ON THE NARROW MEDIAN OF CLOTH THUS PREPARED, I SAT WITH A HARD ON, FORCING IT DOWN SO THE CLOTH COULD BE LACED ROUND MY LOINS: THE SOUND OF THE HOLES TEARING UNDER THE STRAIN OF THE LACES DURING MASTURBATION COULD, BY REFERENCE TO THE BORDEL AND THE THREAT OF THE COSTUMES DESTRUCTION, PRECIPITATE ORGASM EVEN AT THE EXPENSE OF A TEXT RICH IN LECHEROUS PROMISE. THE SIZE OF THE COSTUME VARIES ALSO, ACCORDING TO THE CAPACITY OF ERECTION AT A GIVEN PERIOD: THE PERIOD OF ADOLESCENCE WHEN I HAD MY BIGGEST ERECTIONS CORRESPONDS WITH A COSTUME REDUCED TO ITS MINIMUM, A MICROSCOPIC SCRAP OF CLOTH OVER THE FRONT ONLY, LACED AROUND THE LOINS AND DOWN THE CLEFT OF THE ARSE, A KIND OF SCREEN WHERE THE JET, SPURTING FROM THE RIGID VOID, ROD BENT TO THE STRAINING CLOTH, STRIKES THE STUFF DECORATED WITH ITS FORMER SPERM. HERE, IT SHOULD BE REMARKED THAT THE PART WHICH ATTRACTS ME MOST IN THE MALE BODY, THE BUTTOCKS, RECEIVED, SO FAR AS THAT PART OF MY OWN BODY WAS CONCERNED, NO SPECIAL DRAMA- TISATION DURING THESE SESSIONS.

—THE CLOTH: NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT THIS EXCEPT TO NOTE THAT THE DOMINATING COLOR WAS RED, TEXTURE SPONGY. I TOOK TO COLLEGE WITH ME THE MOST ELEMENTARY MATERIALS (THAT IS TO SAY, THE LIGHTEST OF COSTUMES AND THOSE THAT LEAST RESEMBLED FACTORY-MADE UNDERPANTS, MY IDEA BEING THAT IN CASE OF A SEARCH THEY MIGHT AT FIRST GLANCE BE MISTAKEN FOR A BANDAGE.

—NATURE: DURING THE DAY WHEN MY BEDROOM’S LACK OF SECURITY PREVENTED ME FROM SATISFYING A DESIRE ACCENTUATED BY THE SUDDEN RESOLUTION OF A PROBLEM OF WRITING WHICH HAD BEEN TROUBLING ME FOR SOME TIME (ATTEMPTS AT A NEW SYNTAX), OR THE TRANSCRIPTION OF A SOCIO-BORDELLO INTUITION; OR AGAIN, BY A SUDDEN PANIC BEFORE THE INSOLUBILITY OF MY SOCIAL CONTRADICTIONS AND THE IRREDUCTIBLE INCAPACITY OF THOSE CLOSE TO ME TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND THEM EXCEPT BY TREATING THEM WITH STRICTLY EMOTIONAL RESPECT, I DON, UNDER THE OFFICIAL UNDERPANTS, A CLANDESTINE COSTUME, DELIBERATELY ALLOWING THE MOIST SEXUAL MASS TO “NORMALISE” IT, WARM ITS STRANGENESS, SO TO SPEAK, REWORKING THE SUBSTANCE NEUTRALISED DURING TWENTY-FOUR HOURS OF ABANDON BY LETTING THE SAPS SOFTEN AND REANIMATE THE DRY SPERM STUCK TO THE CLOTH, THEN TAKING MY BIKE, I SET OUT FOR THE HIGHEST POSSIBLE POINTS IN THE MOUNTAINS WHICH I KNOW ARE RARELY FREQUENTED. THERE, TAKING THE CURRENT NOTES OUT OF MY CLAMMY POCKET AND RESTING THEM ON ONE OF THE SATCHELS FROM THE BIKE. UNDOING MY FLY AND WRIGGLING MY HIPS SO THE SHORTS SLIP DOWN MY LEGS OF THEIR OWN ACCORD, I DENUDE, SO TO SPEAK, THE CLANDESTINE COSTUME BY PULLING THE OFFICIAL UNDERPANTS ASIDE, MY FIST SEEKING THE SEMINAL HALO DISPERSED BY THE SEXUAL MASS DURING ITS RIDE ON THE BIKE’S SADDLE, THEN STRETCH OUT, BARE-ARSED, ON GROUND SELECTED FOR ITS GENERAL HUMIDITY, NAPE OF MY NECK AGAINST A TREE TRUNK: A FIR TO BEGIN WITH, SYMBOL FOR ME AT THAT MOMENT OF A ROMANTIC, WESTERN AUSTERITY WHICH, IN SPITE OF THE FASCINATION OF MYTH, MADE ME REJECT GREEK HISTORY, TRAGEDY, AND EVERYTHING THAT IN LANDSCAPE AND WRITING APPEARED AS IN THE FULL LIGHT OF DAY— LATER SUBSTITUTED BY A PINE TREE (THE TRUNK BOTH DRYER. WARMER, MORE “OPEN”, EXPULSING RESINOUS-SEMEN FROM ITS CREVICES) AND BATHING THE ORGIASTIC BODY MORE “COSMICALLY” IN ITS SPARER SHADE AND STRONGER ODOR: SINCE THEN, THE EFFORTS MADE TO REACH SUCCESSIVE ORGASM REPERCUTING THROUGH VERTEBRAE, MUSCLES, NERVES, THROUGH THE NAPE OF THE NECK PUSHING ON CERVICAL VERTEBRAE, HANG OVER ALL MY WRITING.

IN THE NOTES I REFERRED TO EARLIER (NUMBERED ACCORDING TO A HABIT I STILL RETAIN AND WHICH CAN LEAD TO A WHOLE DAY’S SEARCH FOR AN IDEA TO BE TRACED THROUGH THE SUCCESSION OF “IDEAS” NUMBERED AND MENTALLY NOTED THE NIGHT BEFORE) THUS PUTTING A STOP— NOT SO MUCH TO THE WORK OF WRITING (WHICH FUNCTIONS WITH EVEN GREATER INTENSITY DURING THIS SCIENTIFIC SEARCH FOR THE LOST “IDEA” AND ITS PLACE, ALSO LOST, IN THEN MENTAL FLUX)— BUT TO MY “ADHERANCE” TO THE AMBIENT REALITY, EMOTIONAL, POLITICAL, SEXUAL, SO THAT WHAT EMERGES IN THE NOTES ARE WHAT MIGHT BE TERMED RESOLUTIONS BECAUSE OF THEIR FORMULATION: TONIGHT, ORGY” / “TOMORROW NIGHT, USE THE PLASTER COSTUME” / “TIGHTEN THE COSTUME” / “LET THE SPERM RUN DOWN MY LEGS” / “TREAD IN IT ON THE TILES” / “EAT THE SPERM” / NEXT MORNING. EXAMINE IT THROUGH A MAGNIFYING GLASS” / “THIS SUMMER, SMEAR SPERM ON MY MOUTH” / “TONIGHT, TIE THE COSTUME ROUND MY NECK” / ETC., THESE RESOLUTIONS ALTERNATING WITH OTHERS ABOUT MY WRITING. FICTITIOUS LISTS OF RECORDS TO BUY. OR SOME MECHANICAL PROBLEM (REPAIRS TO THE BIKE. INVENTION AND FABRICATION OF IMAGINARY MACHINES, ETC.). PERHAPS THIS SYSTEM OF RESOLUTIONS CAN BE SEEN AS THE BEGINNINGS OF A DRAMATISATION THEN TAKING TEXTUAL. SOCIAL AND POLITICAL FORM: IT ALSO, I THINK. PROVIDED A SOLID CORPOREAL BASIS FOR MY WRITING, STILL SO FRAIL AND UNRECOGNISED. FINALLY. IT SHOULD BE SAID THAT THESE RESOLUTIONS CALLED FORTH AND PREPARED THE LONGEST POSSIBLE SCENARIO: NOW, THE FIRST ORGASM DESTROYED THE IMAGINARY EDIFICE (THOSE THAT FOLLOWED IMMEDIATELY SERVED TO PROLONG THE TEXT AS FAR AS POSSIBLE AND AT THE SAME TIME EFFACE, IF POSSIBLE, BY MUSCULAR FATIGUE. BOTH THE “DESPAIR” OF THE DISGUISE AND THE POST ORGIASTIC RELAPSE INTO A SAVING MYSTICISM), AND OF THIS EXALTED RESOLUTION NOTHING SUBSISTED IN MY EYES EXCEPT A LUDICROUSLY TRUNCATED SCENARIO: BUT ON REFLECTION, WHAT MORE BRUTALLY EXCITING SPECTACLE COULD THERE BE THAN A CHILD MASTURBATING IN COSTUME WITH HIS LEFT HAND. AND WRITING WITH THE OTHER?

MY DISARRAY AT THAT TIME STEMMED FROM THE CONTRADICTORY DRIVES TO BE BOTH SEEN AND SEE-ER (“SEER”), PIMP AND BAWD, BUYER AND BOUGHT, FUCKER AND FUCKED. AND THESE DRIVES WERE PARTLY REFLECTED IN THE APPARATUS EMPLOYED DURING THE MASTURBATORY SESSION: FOR INSTANCE. WHEN MASTURBATING ON THE BED. AGAINST THE BOTTOM BARS OF THE BED-END CLOSEST TO MY HEELS, WAS PROPPED A PIECE OF FAMILY MIRROR (ONCE PART OF THE BEDROOM MIRROR WHERE MY PARENTS COULD CONTEMPLATE THEMSELVES FULL LENGTH). STILL BIG ENOUGH FOR ME TO CONTEMPLATE MYSELF— IN A FORESHORTENING REMINISCENT OF MANTEGNA— WHILE MASTURBATING: THIGHS OPEN. LEFT HAND KNEADING THE MASS OF ORGANS. CLOTH AND STRING. BELLY AND LUNGS WORKING LIKE BELLOWS. HEAD SWEATING. EYES STARING TILL ECLIPSED BY THE ORGASM. AND THE RIGHT HAND WRITING. WRITING. WRITING UNTIL THE SWEAT OF HEEL AND TOES MISTS UP THE MIRROR. LATER. A TAPE RECORDER IS ADDED TO THIS VISUAL DISPOSITION, MACHINE AND MICROPHONE SET UP BETWEEN THE KNEES TO TAPE THE MASTURBATORY SESSION. CONCENTRATING ON SOUNDS PRODUCED RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE MICROPHONE, NAMELY THE SPLASH OF SPERM AS IT HIT THE COSTUME, A RECORDING USED AFTERWARDS NOT ONLY AS ADDITIONAL STIMULANT, BUT TO PUNCTUATE THE MUSIC OF MASTURBATION.

THE SESSION TAKES PLACE BEHIND CLOSED WINDOWS. NEUTRALISING DIURNAL AND NOCTURNAL SOUNDS FROM THE VILLAGE. THE TOWN. OR BACKGROUND NOISES, SO THAT THE MUSIC. VOCALISING ON THE ORGIASTIC SCORE, SO TO SPEAK. MAY RETURN TO THE BODY FROM WHICH IT COMES. ONLY LATER AND ON RARE OCCASIONS, WAS COMMERCIAL MUSIC USED (GENRE POP SINGER AND ANGLO-SAXON POP. ETC., THE VOICES HIGHLY CHARGED SEXUALLY) TO WHIP UP FLAGGING ORGIASTIC ENERGIES. IN WINTER. THE NEED IS SO GREAT THAT EVEN THE AWFUL COLD DOES NOT PREVENT ME FROM MASTURBATING NUDE. EVEN LYING NAKED. TENDONS TAUT AGAINST THE TILES. AND FOR QUARTER OF AN HOUR AFTERWARDS IN A POST-ORGIASTIC STUPOR. WITH ORGANS. MUSCLES. NERVES FROZEN STIFF IN THEIR RELAXATION. LIKE A FROSTY ECHO OF THE ORGIASTIC CIRCUIT.

DURING THOSE SAME WINTER HOLIDAYS. THANKS TO MY “PLUS-FOURS” AND ON DAYS OF EXTREME “SOLITUDE.” I COULD PUT ON ONE OF MY CLANDESTINE COSTUMES, WEARING IT TILL EVENING WHEN I HAD DECIDED TO MASTURBATE: TO WALK ROUND THUS GIRDED IN THE FAMILY CIRCLE. OR AMONG MY FELLOWS AT COLLEGE. GAVE ME AN ALMOST PERFECT SATISFACTION, PARTICULARLY IF TO THE COSTUME UNDER THE OFFICIAL UNDERPANTS, TIGHT ROUND ORGANS, LOINS, BUTTOCKS. CIRCUMSCRIBING MY VIRILE ATTRIBUTES, SO TO SPEAK, WERE STUCK SCRAPS OF THE ORGIASTIC NOTES. AT THE END OF EACH MASTURBATORY SESSION, THESE SCRIBBLED NOTES WERE. ONCE THE RELATIVE PARTS HAD BEEN WIPED. ROLLED UP WITH THE COSTUME IN THE CLOTH AND HIDDEN, ALWAYS IN A DIFFERENT CRANNY OF THE ATTIC WHERE. DURING THE DAY AND NIGHT PRECEDING THE NEXT ORGASM, I COULD COUNT ON THEM ACQUIRING A LAYER OF THE DAMP AND DUST TYPICAL OF SUCH PLACES. IT SOMETIMES HAPPENED THAT. FORAGING THROUGH HEAPS OF RAGS AND PILES OF BROKEN FURNITURE WITHOUT HAVING GIVEN ME FAIR WARNING, THIS MASTURBATORY ROLL FELL INTO MY MOTHERS HANDS, WHO. IN ALL INNOCENCE. PUTS IT SOMEWHERE WHICH TAKES FINDING: FOR EXAMPLE, HAVING FINALLY TRACKED THE ROLL TO MY FATHERS GARAGE UNDER THE HOUSE, I GOT INTO THE HABIT OF TAKING IT DOWN THERE AFTER THE NIGHTLY MASTURBATION, BRINGING IT UP NEXT DAY COVERED IN GREASE, GIRDING IT ON LIKE A MECHANIC’S APPRENTICE OR ADOLESCENT PROSTITUTE, PROMISING MYSELF TO EXAMINE IT AFTER MASTURBATION FOR TRACES OF A MIXTURE OF SPERM AND GREASE.

INITIALLY, ORGASM IS FOLLOWED BY A RELAPSE INTO MYSTICAL AND LITURGICAL PHANTASIES. THIS SWITCH, AT THE VERY MOMENT OF ORGASM, FROM A MENTALITY AND A BODY STRETCHED TO THE LIMITS OF PROSTITUTION AL DESIRE TO A MENTALITY AND A BODY SLIPPING BACK INTO THE VISUAL, TACTILE, AUDITORY AND OLFACTORY SENSATIONS OF A SOCIETY LITURGICALLY IMMACULATE, A PROCESS SO IMPERCEPTIBLE IN ITS SWITCH OF ENERGY, OF FORCES, CROWDS, AND RITUALS, THAT IT HAS ALWAYS CONVINCED ME, NOT ONLY OF THE ENERGY OF MY DRIVES, BUT ALSO OF THE DRIVE BEHIND ALL HUMAN AND MATERIAL ACTIVITY. IT IS THIS CONVICTION THAT, ONCE THE COSTUME AND NOTES ROLLED UP, RESTORES ME TO EQUILIBRIUM. BUT EVEN BEFORE THAT, BETWEEN THE FIRST ORGASM AND THE ROLLING UP OF THE CLOTH, CLEARHEADED MOMENTS INTERVENE: AFTER THE TRANSPORT OF THE FIRST ORGASM, BECAUSE OF THE SWITCH IN MY THOUGHT PROCESS, THE COSTUME STILL GIRDING ME SEEMS LIKE A HORRIFYING DERELICTION BY COMPARISON WITH THE IMMACULATE LINENS OF LITURGY (LIT-ORGY); THEN, AT A LATER DATE, THE COSTUME STUCK TO MY FLANKS WITH SEMEN FEELS LIKE THE PESTILENTIAL CAST-OFF OF A DECADENT WEST AS OPPOSED TO LINEN AND OBJECTS RESTORED TO PRISTINE WHITENESS AFTER EACH BOMB, EACH SPLASH OF MUD OR BLOOD BY A REVOLUTIONARY VIET NAM, AS REVEALED IN FILMS BY JORIS IVENS AND OTHERS.

DURING EACH SESSION, AS THERE ARE SEVERAL EJACULATIONS, SEVEN AT MOST, THE INTERVAL BETWEEN THE FIRST ONE AND THE ROLLING OF THE COSTUME IN THE CLOTH IS EMPLOYED AS FOLLOWS: FROM ONE EJACULATION TO THE NEXT I OSCILLATE BETWEEN TRIUMPHAL LOIN-CLOTH AND ABJECT CAST-OFF SO LONG AS THE WHOLE IS NOT NEUTRALISED. WITH THE RESULT, THAT IN EITHER DIRECTION (MYSTIC OR POLITICAL) MASTURBATION EXCRETES DESIRE AND ITS ANTIDOTE SIMULTANEOUSLY: THE “HYGENIC” REFLEX (WIPING AND ROLLING UP) FRUSTRATING WHAT, FOR OBVIOUS SOCIAL REASONS, IT CANCELS OUT, NAMELY: THE WEARING OF THE SEMEN-SOAKED COSTUME AT ALL TIMES, IN SUN AND WIND, IN RAIN, IN COLD AND HEAT, IN A CROWD, RUNNING. SLEEPING, IN CONTACT WITH OTHER PROSTITUTIONAL BODIES, IN THE STREET, IN SHOPPING CENTRES, ETC.— WHICH, SEEN IN RETROSPECT, MAY APPEAR AS THE OUTWARD MANIFESTATION OF A CONTROL I HOPE IS LASTING, EXTENDING FURTHER AND FURTHER, AND MORE AND MORE DIALECTICALLY OVER ALL MY DRIVES.

ALL THE ORGIASTIC NOTES OF MY ADOLESCENCE HAVE BEEN LOST, TORN UP INTO MINUTE SCRAPS SO THAT NO ONE COULD RECOGNISE THE BAWDY TERMS I WAS ALREADY USING; OR THROWN AS THEY WERE DOWN THE WC AT THAT PRECISE MOMENT WHEN I KNEW AND DID NOT KNOW IF DESIRE WOULD RETURN. I HAVE A MEMORY OF SHORT FRAGMENTS WHERE NARRATIVE AND SPEECH ALTERNATE, SOMETIMES VERSE. AS I WAS WRITING MAINLY POETRY AT THE TIME. IN AN EPHEMERAL AND SUMMARY FASHION. THEY DRAMATISED, UNDER THEIR OWN NAMES AND APPEARANCE, CERTAIN OF MY SCHOOL FRIENDS, OR PEOPLE I HAD CAUGHT SIGHT OF IN THE SLUMS OF THE INDUSTRIAL TOWN WHERE THE COLLEGE FLAUNTED ITS MACMAHONIEN ARCHITECTURE — FUGITIVE BUT OBSESSIVE VISIONS— LIKE THAT OF A BOY, GLIMPSED ONE SUMMER EVENING RETURNING FROM A PILGRIMAGE ON FOOT TO SOME “GROTESQUE” CAVERN OF A MIRACULOUS VIRGIN. THE BITTER TASTE OF A DRINK DISTRIBUTED BY THE GUARDIAN NUNS STILL IN OUR MOUTHS . . . TORSO BARE, WEARING A PAIR OF TIGHT BLUE LINEN SHORTS SOAKED WITH SWEAT BETWEEN THE THIGHS, SEATED IN FRONT OF A HOUSE INHABITED BY SLAV WORKERS, HIS LEGS SO WIDE APART I COULD SEE THE WHITE EDGE OF UNDERPANTS THAT MOULDED A PRECOCIOUSLY DEVELOPED VIRILITY, HEAD THROWN BACK, THROAT PULSING, BLACK CURLS STUCK TO HIS BROW WITH WHAT I IMAGINED WAS SPERM, OR FLUID BELONGING TO A WOMAN IN A FULL DRESS AND WHITE KERCHIEF LEANING. LAUGHING, OVER THE BALLUSTRADE OF A ROUGH WOODEN BALCONY ABOVE HIM— A MAN SUDDENLY LOOMING UP BEHIND THE BOY FROM A DARK PASSAGEWAY, BROOM IN ONE HAND, KNIFE IN THE OTHER, IN PURSUIT OF A RAT— RAT JUMPING OVER THE BOY’S BARE NECK, SPLASHING HIM WITH ITS BLOOD, VEERING BACK TO THE WALL. SQUEALING, TRYING TO SCALE THE COAL-BLACKENED STONES— AND SUDDENLY, THE SHOWER THAT HAS BEEN THREATENING, BREAKS OVER THIS SUBURB HANGING ALONG A SCHIST OF ROCK, WHERE FAMILIES LIVING IN CELLARS AND AT GROUND LEVEL HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE SHIT THEMSELVES. THAT POURS FROM BURST SEWERS INTO THEIR ONE AND ONLY LIVING ROOM.

AMONG OTHER REAL OR IMAGINARY BODIES. WOMEN. VERY SEXY OF BUM OR BREAST. ALREADY LOOKED ON AS “SERVANTS OF THE MALE BODY.” WEARERS OF MASCULINE ATTIRE REMOVED FOR “INTERCOURSE” (MORE FAMILIAR TO ME AT THAT MOMENT AS AN ENSEMBLE OF SOCIAL POSTURES THAN AN ACT OF PENETRATION), PUSHERS OF ORGIASTIC BODIES. MENDERS OF PROSTITUTION AL GARMENTS TORN DURING “INTERCOURSE.” THE FREQUENCY OF THIS SEXUAL CHOICE SHOULD BE SET AGAINST ANOTHER VERY DEFINITE TENDENCY OF MY FIFTEENTH OR SIXTEENTH YEAR: AS I REMEMBER IT. THREE QUARTERS OF MY WAKING THOUGHTS ARE BUSY PLOTTING “HOMOSEXUAL” SCENARIOS. WHILE SLEEP AND DREAM AFFORD ME ONLY CONFRONTATIONS, IN THE NUDE, WITH THE BODIES OF VERY REAL AND BAWDY WOMEN. QUITE EARLY IN THE PIECE. BOTH MALE AND FEMALE SCENARIOS TAKE A TURN TOWARD SLAVERY IN ANTIQUITY (THE LATINISED OR GRECIAN NAMES OF BODIES CONSTITUTING BY THEIR SOLE ENUMERATION ALL THE TEXT REQUIRED TO STIMULATE DESIRE); THEN THE THEME CHANGES TO PROSTITUTION AS I LEARN FROM RADIO HOW SEXUALLY CHARGED CERTAIN OBVIOUSLY MODERN NAMES CAN BE. THEIR HACKNEYED. COMMON SOUND EVOKING A PROSTITUTIONAL “SOAP OPERA.” (DURING MY TRIPS TO NORTH AFRICA I DISCOVERED THAT MANY ARAB SERVANTS, SHOP ASSISTANTS AND APPRENTICES CALL THEMSELVES “CHARLEY,” “JACKY,” “EDDIE,” “FRANKIE. ’’ ETC.) THE ONLY OFFICIAL FRENCH NAMES THAT FIGURE AMONG THESE ANGLO-SAXON BORROWINGS ARE OF SLAV ORIGIN (SERGE). I HAVE ALWAYS CONSIDERED THAT THE NAMES INTEGRAL TO THE FRENCH LANGUAGE CARRY WITH THEM THE DESUET ATMOSPHERE OF A WESTERN CIVILISATION WHICH. AT THAT TIME, WAS TRYING TO IMPOSE ON ME THE MOST INSIPID AND SUPERFICIAL OF ITS PRODUCTIONS.

THE IRREGULAR ALTERNATION NARRATIVE/SPEECH SHOULD ALSO BE SEEN IN RELATION WITH THE POSITIONING OF ORGANS AND COSTUME, OR WITH THE DEGREE OF THE MEMBER’S ERECTION. FOR EXAMPLE: PRONOUNCED ERECTION ACCELERATES ORGASMIC URGENCY. WHICH MEANS THE TEXT HAS TO BE WRITTEN IN HASTE; THIS HASTE ONLY ALLOWS FOR WORDS TO BE PUT ON PAPER, OR FRAGMENTS OF WORDS. INTERJECTIONS WITHOUT SYNTACTIC LINKS-ONLY SPEECH. THEREFORE; BUT GRADUALLY, AS I GOT MY “TONGUE” INTO THE WRITING OF FRENCH. SO TO SPEAK, FAMILIARITY AND EASE IN HANDLING ITS RHETORIC GAVE MY HAND THE SPEED NECESSARY, IN CASE OF A PRONOUNCED ERECTION, TO WRITE A NARRATIVE SEQUENCE. I PLAYED ON THIS EXCHANGE: HAVING WEDGED THE ERECT MEMBER INTO THE COSTUME BY IMPRESSING ON IT A PROPULSION THAT REMINDED ME OF A COG-WHEEL OR A SCREW. I ABANDONED IT. DIRECTING MY THOUGHTS TOWARD NON-SEXUAL ZONES, MY EYES ON A PAGE OF EUROPEAN HISTORY IN A BOOK I KEPT BESIDE THE BED, OR BETTER STILL, A PAGE OF PHILOSOPHY OR HISTORY OF PHILOSOPHY, ALLOWING THE MEMBER TO SUBSIDE. AND WRITING AS MUCH TEXT AS POSSIBLE BEFORE IT ROSE AGAIN. THIS I COULD DO SEVERAL TIMES. UNTIL THE MOMENT CAME WHEN THE MEMBER. OVER-STIMULATED BY REPEATED MANIPULATION. ERECTION/ DEJECTION/RE-ERECTION. DISCHARGED ITS JET BEFORE I COULD SUMMON UP ALL THE MENTAL AND CORPOREAL TENSIONS THAT USUALLY PRESIDED AT THE MOMENT OF ORGASM. ON THE OTHER HAND. THE STRICTURE OR LAXITY OF THE COSTUME MOULDING THE TEXT MADE IT EITHER TOUGH OR TENDER. EVEN COMIC. IF I LET THE COSTUME HANG LOOSE ON MY LOINS, THE MANIPULATON OF THE PENIS INSIDE THE UNINHIBITED CLOTH PRODUCED A RELAXED TEXT, SPEECH AND NARRATIVE WRITTEN WITHOUT THOUGHT OF THE PROSTITUTIONAL SITUTATION; WHEREAS THE TIGHT LACING OF THE CLOTH ON THE MEMBER. ITS ERECTION SCREWED DOWN, OR FORCED TO THE BACK OF THE BALLS. INDUCED A TEXT OF NARRATIVE AND SPEECH IN WHICH THE HARD ECONOMIC FACTS OF PROSTITUTION (SALE, HIRE, PRICE OF BODIES, COST OF MANIPULATING THESE BODIES. ACCOUNTANCY OF THE NUMBER OF TIMES, ETC.) FOUND THEIR EXPRESSION IN THE HANDWRITING ITSELF. CRAMPED AND MORE DELIBERATELY VERTICAL.

THIS ALTERNANCE, MULTIPLIED LATER BY THE NUMBER OF PLACES (HOTELS, ETC.) IN WHICH I MASTURBATED, LED TO A REPETITION WITH VARIATIONS OF PRECEDING SEQUENCES INSCRIBED ON THE MASS OF NOTES WHICH I COULD NOT TRANSPORT, PRODUCING A TEXT WHERE TYPING NECESSARILY OPERATED A CHOICE OF INTRODUCED AN ORDER: THE MANUSCRIPT (1962-1969) BEARS GRAPHIC WITNESS NOTONLYTOTHE DETAIL AND CHRONOLOGICAL CURVE OF THIS PROCESS OF INTERACTION. BUT ALSO IN ITS WRITING. OF A PROGRESSIVE CONVERGENCE BETWEEN THE “DECENT’ (THAT IS TO SAY THE PUBLISHABLE OR PUBLISHED) TEXT WITH THE GREAT SEXUAL SWELL. FROM THE MEETING OF THESE CONTRADICTORY CURRENTS. “DECENT” TEXT/INDECENT MASTURBATORY, RESULTS THE ABUNDANCE, IN THIS MANUSCRIPT, OF VARIATIONS, REPETITIONS, OVERLAPPING OF SEQUENCES. NOMINAL CONFUSIONS. ETC. DURING THIS PERIOD WHICH I REMEMBER BEST, FROM ONE NIGHT TO ANOTHER, FROM AFTERNOON TO EVENING (AT CERTAIN TIMES THE RESURGENCE OF DESIRE ACCELERATES. HENCE THE EXALTATION OF CERTAIN TEXTS, NO DOUBT) I HAVE TO INTERRUPT WHAT THREATENS TO BECOME A PHYSIOLOGIC DANGER— PULMONARY, CARDIAC. RENAL— AND BRING MY BODY BACK TO WHAT I BELIEVE IS A CRUDER. MORE COMMON REALITY: DESIRE AND ITS RESOLUTION IN THE ORGASM: THE STYLE CHANGES, A FRAGMENT OF RHETORIC CHOSEN FOR ITS QUASI-BANALITY TO FIT THE “DECENT’ TEXT SUCCEEDED BY A FRAGMENT OF SPEECH OR NARRATIVE TEXTUALLY COMPLEX AND ELLIPTIC IN ITS JARGON. IT SHOULD BE NOTED THAT THE TEXTUAL AND MASTURBATORY SESSION, ABOVE ALL ONE THAT PRODUCES WRITING- JARGON, IS PREPARED “TEXTUALLY” LONG HOURS IN ADVANCE OF THE SESSION: RHYTHMICALS, MODULATIONS, WORDS OF THIS JARGON THEMSELVES, ARE INVENTED SIMULTANEOUSLY WITH WORK ON A “DECENT’ TEXT, WHICH MAY SUBSEQUENTLY ENTAIL MAKING CERTAIN CUTS. FINALLY, A NUMBER OF NOTES FROM THIS PERIOD. WHEN I WAS ASSAILED BY THE DIFFICULTIES OF PUBLISHING EVEN “DECENT’ TEXTS, LET ALONE A LITERARY PUBLICATION OF THE NOTES. ARE UNREADABLE TODAY: STUCK AND UNSTUCK BY SUCCESSIVE ORGASMS. ALL THAT EMERGES THROUGH THE FADED MIXTURE OF INK AND SEMEN. ARE FRAGMENTS OF SEXUAL WORDS. INSULTS, APOSTROPHIC PUNCTUATION, OR PRICES OF THE SALE AND HIRE OF BODIES. AND NOMINAL APPELLATIONS. PRINCIPALLY BECAUSE WHEN WRITING NAMES AND NUMBERS I PRESSED HARDEST WITH THE NIB.

TRANSLATED BY CATHERINE DUNCAN

PIERRE GUYOTAT: «LANGAGE DU CORPS»; ARTAUD/BATAILLE;  CERISY-LA-SALLE 1972

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